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About Me Member Emotional Poet MistakenPoet21/Male/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 2 Years
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I love her.

Sun Oct 25, 2009, 7:02 PM
  • Mood: Tearful
I love her to death.
I really do.
God...

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I am twenty-two years old. I am a poet, a musician, and at times an artist. I don't believe that I have much talent, but these are the things that I love, and bring me happiness. I'd rather fail doing what I love than succeed at something that makes me miserable. I'm overly-emotional and sensitive to negative situations and feelings. I'm a hopeless romantic. I want friendship, joy, and love in my life, I have no room and no patience for hate, cruelty, and violence.

I've overcome a lot of obstacles in my life, I've overcome a lot of fears, and I've made right a lot of wrongs. But I have a long way to go until I'm anywhere near being the person that I want to be. In the meantime, who I am now is who I am, I accept that and I expect others to as well, if you can't, kindly go away.

I have very, very, very few friends in my life. Some of them are online and I don't get to see them in person. The ones that are in my life, physically, are so important to me. I am always trying to build new friendships, but it's difficult, because I find it impossible to trust anyone. But when I do trust you, I am the most loyal, loving, caring friend I can be. My family is just as important to me. No matter how much distance comes between us, emotional or physical, they mean the world to me and I am lucky to have them.

I'm in love with someone that I can't be with, but she is, whether she realizes it or not, one of my best friends, and I adore her. I'd give anything for her, do anything for her, be anything for her. She's my world. I tried letting go, but I can't, I need her in my life, and I'm lucky to have her. No relationship is perfect. No life is perfect. But she's perfect for me. As long as I love her I cannot give myself to anyone, so I am staying out of relationships for a while. Some day, perhaps, I'll find someone, but that day isn't in sight. And I think I'm okay with that right now.

At the end of the day, the thing that I love the most, what I know will always be here for me, will never judge me, never hate me, never use me, never abuse me ...is music. I live for music. It is my life, it is my passion, it is what eases my pain and frees me. I need it. I love to sing, to play guitar, to write music. Again, I don't believe I have much talent, and I certainly don't know as much as I wish I did, but what I do know are my feelings. Music always comes first in my life. It has priority. I intend to make a living playing music, writing music, recording it, just working with it in all aspects. I have a way to go before I reach that point, but I don't care. I get one life, and I'm not going to waste it being something I don't want to be, otherwise, I have no point in living.

Alice in Chains is a band that means a lot to me. They've pulled me through the most difficult times in my life, and have literally saved my life on numerous occasions. Layne Staley is one of my biggest inspirations and influences, and the reason I fell in love with singing. I don't just love a song by the band, or two songs, or an album. I love the band, the people in it, the people who were in it. I've seen them live twice, and they were the greatest shows of my life. Besides them, I listen to a wide variety of music. I love blues, metal, alternative, even some jazz, some electronic, a little bit of everything. From Muddy Waters, to Radiohead, to Led Zeppelin, to Nirvana, to Katatonia, to Brand New, Jimi Hendrix, and Jeff Buckley, I listen to anything that touches me and interests me. I just love music.

And there's a small sampling and example of who I am, of the kind of person that I am. I'm mostly writing this because it's seven in the morning and I have nothing better to do at this very moment. But I figured, what the hell, I don't update my page enough and I don't really express myself the way I should. So, there you go.

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:iconf-e-n-n:
Heya. Been a while. Sent you a note, and I was gonna email you but I'm not sure if you still have that email address. Man, I hope you get these. :X

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"You see, at this point, I'm pretty much the Queen Bitch of the Universe. And not all of your little soldiers or space ships will stand in my way again. "

“My vagina doesn’t play the video games so I fail to see how it’s relevant.”- bs angel
:iconmistakenpoet:
I still have that one e-mail address, yeah... e-mail me anytime. I just sent you a note so, take your time, and I'll talk to you soon. :)
:iconapsara609:
thank you for the watch, i very much appreciate it :D
:iconrobyn233:
Alex, where have you been? I'm worried.

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